||[Sep. 14th, 2005|06:45 pm]
sorry havnt been on|
im sick..well i always am but u know..
well i cutyesterday after 3 weeks of constant crying and trying not to cut
i cried to the point where i threw up and had a nose bleed the other day
i did bulbs (nitrous oxide) on saturday with lunchbox and kieran and it was fun. i passed out twice. hahha ur not meant to pass out but because it takes away iron, and im already iron deficient, i fainted..haha it was fun.....
lia finally got in contact with me. i missed her. i love her so much. i was so worried.
school is so hard. im finding it hard to get back into the study rhythm. i have to get my head down but raving is so distracting. i cant wait till 12th nov when its all over and i can go outttttttt
i havnt lost weight..i only ate fruit and a piece of chocoalte cake today.. bad eating the cake but at least that was it.
i hate life.
i want to die.
kieran got his ps. woot! now i dont have to walk everywhere
i am seeing bunney and jacqui soon. i have to be skinny!!!!
i cant take being fat n emore :(
i hate myself. i want to cut away all the fat and slit my wrists till i cant bleed anymore.
i have a headache....